I’ve decided to start a journal. A journal where I can share lifes happenings. So that one day I can look back on everything. It’ll be very informal. It’ll be all over the place. I’ll talk about personal life, work, my achievements, what I’m struggling with, and just my thoughts about everything in this world. It’s something I’ve thought about for a while and something that I’ve done with pen and paper for the past few weeks, but honestly, I just hate writing. Like pen and paper writing. So with that, here we are, journaling online for the world to see. But in the end, this is only for me.
This journal probably comes during the worst time Aubrey and I have had in the past two years or so. It all revolves around the little girl in the picture above. Dixie is literally our child. Shes a two year old boxer that Aubrey and I fell in love with the moment she was born. We brought her home at 8 weeks old. She has literally been our life for the past two years. She goes everywhere with us. She comes to work with me everyday and has literally been there from the start of my business. There were many lonely days where I sat at the studio and just stared at my computer not knowing what to do. Starting a new business is hard, but Dixie was always there to cheer me up.
The past three weeks have been extremely difficult and more importantly, very frustrating. She started with this terrible cough. Hacking and gagging but never spitting anything up. You could see it in her eyes, she was struggling with something and she just wanted to tell you what was wrong. So we took her to the doctor. They thought it was inflammation so they put her on a steroid. Bad mistake. She had a horrible reaction to it. She used the bathroom uncontrollably throughout the house and in her crate. She’s not that type. She literally would look at you while she was making a mess and you could tell she was not ashamed. She just couldn’t control it. It hurt me so much. So we went for a second opinion. 5 hours later after blood work, vitals, x-rays, and many talks with the doctor, they couldn’t pin-point the issue. Her bloodwork was normal, she had no temperature, there was no blockage in her body, nothing was stuck, and her heart was the best it could be (boxers are prone to heart issues). They decided to put her on two different medications for 14 days to possibly treat two different issues. Bacterial infections in the lungs and lung worms. To no avail, neither worked. 14 days of waking up multiple times per night with her not being able to breathe, having to use the bathroom, coughing, sneezing, and hacking to the point where tears where streaming out of her eyes.
Finally, I had enough one night and we went to the emergency vet for a third opinion on figuring everything out. Again, her vitals were perfectly normal, her lungs were clear, and the doctor took a look at X-rays that were previously taken from the other vet. She was stumped. It was a very frustrating moment. Here we are with a dog that we would give anything to just know whats wrong and even the experts didn’t know. Finally, we were pointed towards the direction of seeing a specialist. One that can stick a scope down into her lungs, wash it out, and test everything. So we went that direction. At this point, we’ve spent thousands of dollars to not really make any progress. We could care less about the price, we just wanted to get to the bottom of it.
We’ve had to stop all medication because she has to be put to sleep for them to wash her lungs out, which has been the worst to see her suffer and we can’t give her anything to relieve her cough. It’s also very frustrating that we have to wait until Tuesday (5 days from when we made the appointment for it to happen).
So now we’re just playing the waiting game now until Tuesday morning where she has the procedure done. We’re just hanging on and hoping for the best. That we find out exactly what is happening.
She’s lost the spark in her eye lately. Just because we can tell she doesn’t feel good. We use to wrestle every morning before work, but now we have to keep her as calm as possible just so her coughing attack doesn’t start. Which is the hardest thing to do for a boxer puppy. Literally impossible. We’re just hoping and praying we can figure it out and we can get her better!